Monday, March 5, 2012

My Wandering Soul is Anchored

My wandering soul that runs and runs can stop running. I have found a home. One that I won't get sick of, one that I won't want to eventually move from.

I am going to dwell in the house of the Lord forever.
This causes me to have hope. I have a home. Where I will stay forever.

This has become a daily reality and is anchoring my soul. I am leaving, I am moving...but I'm not looking for a home. I have a home. I'm just going, doing life, and falling more in love until that home comes down and Jesus comes to me.

"Now He who has prepared us for this very thing is God, who also has given us the Spirit as a guarantee."-2 Corinthians 5:5

"The hope of the righteous will be gladness"-Proverbs 10:28

"You will show me the path of life; In Your presence is fullness of joy; At Your right hand are pleasures forevermore"-Psalm 16:10-11

"Confessed that they were strangers and pilgrims on the earth. For those who say such things declare plainly that they seek a homeland...But now they desire a better, that is, a heavenly country. Therefore God is not ashamed to be called their God, for He has prepared a city for them."-Hebrews 11:13-14, 16

"Living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, to an inheritance incorruptible and undefiled and that does not fade away, reserved in heaven for you."-1 Peter 1:3-4

"For our citizenship is in heaven, from which we also eagerly wait for the Savior, the Lord Jesus Christ, who will transform our lowly body that it may be conformed to His glorious body, according to the working by which He is able even to subdue all things to Himself." -Philippians 3:20-21

"Jesus Christ...the firstborn from the dead, and the ruler over the kings of the earth." -Revelation 1:5

"For we know that the whole creation groans and labors with birth pangs together until now. Not only that, but we also who have the first fruits of the Spirit, even we ourselves groan within ourselves, eagerly waiting for the adoption, the redemption of our body." -Romans 8:22-23

"If Christ weren't raised, then all you're doing is wandering about in the dark, as lost as ever...If all we get out of Christ is a little inspiration for a few short years, we're a pretty sorry lot. But the truth is that Christ has been raised up, the first in a long legacy of those who are going to leave the cemeteries."-1 Corinthians 15:19-20

"For since by man came death, by Man also came the resurrection of the dead. For as in Adam all die, even so in Christ all shall be made alive."-1 Corinthians 15:21, 22

He never breaks a promise. "This hope we have as an anchor for the soul, both sure and steadfast..." (Hebrews 6:19)

Jesus walked this earth. He died, and rose again from the dead and is alive right now. There is a real man in heaven. There is a real man praying for us (Romans 8:34, Hebrews 7:25). He is coming back to earth, will once again walk this earth, and will rule and reign. He will be King and I will be ruling with Him over this world. He will come and save us, give us new bodies and we will live with Him forever in the fullness of the Spirit and love. He is now preparing a city for us to live in. This city will come down out of heaven and we will dwell there with God Himself.

He is my home. I am a stranger here, a citizen of another kingdom. The real, resurrected man is my home. As He lives within me, I live within Him. He is the resurrection and the life. He shows us what is to come. He gave His Spirit as a guarantee that He hasn't forgotten us. He is working on our behalf, preparing a place for us and will transform us. He is my exceedingly great reward. He is my inheritance, my portion, my prize.

"My soul...sinks within me. BUT this I recall to my mind, Therefore I have hope. Through the Lord’s mercies we are not consumed, Because His compassions fail not. They are new every morning; Great is Your faithfulness. “The Lord is my portion,” says my soul,“Therefore I hope in Him!”"-Lamentations 3:20-25

"All who are victorious will become pillars in the Temple of my God, and they will never have to leave it. And I will write on them the name of my God, and they will be citizens in the city of my God--the new Jerusalem that comes down from heaven from my God."-Revelation 3:12

Saturday, February 11, 2012

I Still Want the World

I love spending my days here. It's where I find clarity, where I begin to fly, and where I find true life.

I cry all the time. My soul is getting set free. The love that Jesus has for me has never been this personal, tangible, measurably immeasurable in my life.

My soul is singing new songs these days. Songs of beautiful, sweet truth combating years of lies. I'm not saying this is easy or fun-it's actually really hard-but I am saying that this is truly worth it. Running after Jesus has caused years of pain, and years of lies to cease at an instant, in a moment. The phrase "He loves me" has been carried on the wind of the Spirit reaching into my deep-and so beautifully right in the midst of my dark.

I still want the world. Probably now more than ever. And instead of it just being a phrase that a dreamer uses, I can calculate and count what "the world" means to me. I want my generation to be set free by the knowledge of God. Every single college campus. Every 17-25 year old. Me.

I've found that I still like to dance after a 2 year hiatus. I still like to encourage, and write letters to people and ask God what He thinks about them. I still care too much what the "cool" people think and shut myself down around them (we're working on). I really love to be around people and be in big, silly, loud groups-sometimes I have to push myself, "I should probably talk...I can do it, I can do it-mmm nope!". Those moments really overwhelm my heart and cause me to freak and declare war...but the other 90% of the time you can't get me to stop talking or jumping with excitement over life. The teens I work with have given me the title of being the most excited, enthusiastic and giddy leader in our whole department. I can't help who I am---and I have never been asked to.

I think I've realized why I always run away. I'm giving myself an "experiment season"-a few months, a few projects and things "to-do" and then we'll see if I still want to run away to somewhere different, to do the same thing. No more running away for a few months....after I get back from this weeks escape....

But I could never ever run away from Him. I never have. I really never will. He is magnificent.
He always has me. He's always near, and He always runs away with me. He likes that I always drag Him along on these escapes, I think that's why He lets me go on them. But maybe sometime I'd like to stay...I'm just not sure if it's here I'd like to stay.