Monday, December 14, 2009

I'll run the race...

"half-sure, yet wholehearted".

This was just one small, teeny little line in a 27 page Communication research article I was reading to study for my final.  But when I read it, everything seemed to freeze.  

Ok, so I like to envision my life as a movie sometimes.  The camera would do a close up of my face, my eyes would look off to the right, I'd sigh, and the music would perfectly crescendo with my emotional cues.  
....don't judge me-i know you do it too! ;]

I love when I listen to a song or read a sentence in a book that seems to echo the very feelings of your soul.

"Half-sure yet wholehearted". exactly! 

I am wholehearted about following the Lord and going where He wants me to go and do whatever He wants me to do.  Yet I'm half-sure.  Only because this isn't quite what I had planned.  My plans=getting married young, popping out a football team, living in a cute house and singing and dancing around as I fold my loves laundry.  Yes, i feel like this is still in "the plan", but not just the way that I saw it originally.  

I feel like I'm a crazy goose with insane ideas and high dreams, whose running after them and seeing no one else run along side of her.  But once again, SO wholehearted about it all.  I'm only running because His hand is pulling me along.  This hand hold is what I call love.  
"Christ's love has moved me to such extremes"-2 corinthians 5:14.  
I know that His ways are so much higher than mine.  He has a totally different perspective and view point.  He loves me so much.  His plans for me are nothing but good-looking back on everything He's done i know He has me. 

I know that all I have to do is just keep holding his hand and giggling as we run along into these crazy things.  Just enjoy the adventure.  Maybe someone is running on the other side of Him, holding His other hand...maybe one day we'll catch a glimpse of each other's feet as we're running along.  But for now I'll hold off on my football team, the joy of doing dishes and folding laundry, and i'll go to where He's called me to go and do what He's called me to do.  

He's got nothing but good, good things for me! I know He has me.

2 comments:

Above all else: Love said...

thank you for posting.

Ria Thurston said...

Agreed! I always cling to Isaiah 55:8-9 "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways," declares the LORD.
"As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.

Bless you!